loser

So she thought, "Why is it that some people get this and that, when I don't? When we are just as good as them, possibly even better? When we try even harder, therefore we deserved it more?"

"Why is it that some suck at being a human being, but they seem to be more successful than you, who try you best (almost) every time? Why do we sometimes feel like a born failure, loser? With a capital L, mind you."

She couldn't even think of something she was really good at. But she tries really hard, she does.

It's just that I have to understand that sometimes things do not and would not go the way you want it to.