do you really know me? do you? do you?

Do my Sammy Sam Sam's DO YOU KNOW ME quiz here!

Who gets 100% I give a kiss say you're very smart.

coffee vanilla

Coffee vanilla ice cream
during one of the almost-weekly yumchar sessions

Lazy lah to edit and mark my pictures. But rest assured this lapse of attentiveness is only temporal, and everything will be back to normal in, let's say, a couple of weeks? So please bear with me now the amateur-like posts with less professional pictures.

Guess what came in the post two days ago?

Finally! If you haven't been catching up with my blog previously, you can read more about it here.

Two complimentary passes to any movie! Most probably I'll give it to my parents because I promised them the original Slumdog Millionaire tickets. Ah well, not like I want anyone particular to go with anyway.

One down, two to go! (NTV7 & Malaysian Meteorology Department's complain emails)

Also, an amazing gift from Siew Ling. Thanks babe!

This is now my desktop background!

Picnic tomorrow, Lookout Point on Monday? What else what else? I need to keep busy for this 2 weeks break, other than just doing assignments!

Ah, Victor's Restaurant City...

PS - Do you realize that everywhere you go, you see adverts of this brand - Corntoz? They must have an amazing marketing team.

And as always, Kenny Sia's video submission for the Corntoz competition is so hilarious.

Emo One-Liner

Today the whole world turned yellow

The hardest thing isn't losing you. It's losing the friendship.

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Haha didn't the line make you just want to laugh out loud? If you can't, just imagine Samantha Chow saying that with a serious face, then you will.

Hahahaha even I myself can't stop laughing. Sam oh Sam...

PS - I've corrected my previous post title which had a grammatical error. It's supposed to be its instead of it's. Do pardon me as we humans make mistakes and although I try very hard not to make any grammatical or spelling mistakes in my writings, it does happen. Luckily no one has yet lodged a complaint with the Grammar Police and banned me from any more word-related 'produce'. For the sake of the future of our literary world, do excuse me and give me another chance!

Though of course even if you don't, there's nothing much you can do.

Narcissism In Its Full Glory

Which do you think is better?

This?

Or this?

Humility and modesty is so overrated.

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What happens when overconfidence takes over? When you're on a sure road home, but then circumstances changes - one wrong turning, then you're on the road to the unknown? What do you do? Do you stop at the side of the road and start calling everyone from your phone list, asking for help or do you just go on, believing in yourself and driving slowly, hoping that there's another road leading to your destination, keeping an eye out for a sign that might say "HOME THIS WAY"?

I did the latter.

After paying countless tolls and driving an extra half the distance from my uni to my home, I finally made it into a familiar area which is the ASTRO building in Bandar Tek, and then I knew that I wasn't lost. Anymore.

Imagine me laughing at myself during the whole lost journey, instead of frowning and worrying away which I imagine would be a normal reaction. Blue (yes the band) kept me company with their old hits, and I was brought away into a labyrinth of old familiarity and memories.

Certain songs remind me of certain people, a certain period of my life. Like Gareth Gates and Avril Lavigne's first ever CD reminded me of my first ever non-celebrity crush because that was what I was listening to when I was, you know, crush-ing. Fergie's Clumsy, a very happy sweet song reminded me of a more recent crush, because I had an unconscious habit of knocking things over and banging into things whenever I see him, and also because that song was 'in' during that period of time, and it makes me laugh whenever I hear it because it reminds me of myself. Blue (the band) reminds me of an old friend, Kimberley who introduced me to them, and I remember the form 1 days when she use to come over and we practiced dance moves based on their songs.

Urghh, I always find reminiscing about the 'old days' a very funny notion especially when it happens to 'young' people like me, who hasn't even reached 19.

I feel like I understand the world, but I can't put it into words.

#changes one

Something new - hover over the blog links on the right side! I spent an hour plus doing that. However, for many of the links I just put their blog titles because I have not thought of a good tagline for you. Do take a look at your blog link and if you don't like what it says, let me know and I'll might change it. Some are real funny though!

These past few weeks I can feel certain changes in myself. Like the fact that I am more active physically and you can see it by my tanner skin, drier hair (chlorine and the sun does that to your hair, especially if you're a lazy bummer like me who doesn't do regular hair treatments) and being slightly more spotted (also due to laziness to slather on sun block). But I've never felt this healthy! Okay maybe not healthier but active-r? I've always wanted to get involved in physical activity and games but lacked the opportunities to do it in high school seeing as they always choose the best people for competitions and stuff, and okay maybe I was lazy as well. And I don't look good in school t-shirts and track suits!

I am quite happy though I just shed a few tears. Grey's Anatomy lah! In today's episode there was a death and it was particularly sad because it was an old woman who died. Seeing her husband who was obviously so in love with her... And I think that Meredith's smile is really adorable!

I treated my family (except my sister who refused to join because she was sulking away again) to Secret Recipe for dessert! I was really craving for something sweet, and I didn't want to be the only one sinfully indulging in cakes when I'm not supposed to, so I proposed a treat and they all happily accepted. Durian Cheese was surprisingly yummy, though I was initially quite against it seeing as I don't really like eating durians because my hands stink afterwards.

PTPTN results out at http://epinjaman.ptptn.gov.my! What a coincidence because my parents were just asking me about it today, and then Grace told me that it was out so I went to check. Luckily my application got approved and they're offering me about 45% of my total course payment. Dad's happy, mom's complaining, I don't know what to feel about this.

My plans for the upcoming two weeks break - shopping, shopping, shopping! I know I sound bimbotic and empty-headed, but then I doubt that I can find any 2-weeks part time job and also I must reward myself kan for this really torturous and long-suffering 4 months, of which the first two I was literally lazing away at home.

Too many random ramblings, don't like must stop.

#daily two

Today was a very 'useful' day. I woke up at 1pm, had lunch and then went back to sleep at 2pm until 5.30pm. Then, I went for a very difficult and suffering evening jog. The weather is so freaking hot damn it this must be the end of the world. Truth be told, I wouldn't mind very much if it is.

Yes, it was Vivien's 18th birthday on the 17th of April and we had a birthday lunch with her at TGIF on that day.

Here's a video of her being forced to sing, then give a speech. Later, the TGIF people sang her their very long birthday song.

After my sim card went crazy and I had to buy a new one, my contact list became a little bit out because I had to transfer all my phone contacts to the sim, and since there's most phone contacts than in the sim, some of the contacts that I wanted to store in my sim weren't transferred due to lack of space, and I am lazy to go through both lists one by one to see which is in and which aren't. Also, I accidentally restored my contacts from the Memory Stick, which have some really old contacts and numbers. I spent a long time deleting those unneccessary ones and also accidentally deleted some correct new numbers, saving the old ones instead. Major annoyance.

Being on a constant low for such a longish period of time takes a toll on me, and on the people around me. However, I have a small handful of people to thank for being part of the very small incentive for me of just purely staying alive. You know who you are. Or, you might not. The point is, the smallest things you do might be just the thing someone else needs. So don't think that the little things don't matter. But oh, am I the right one to tell you this.

I have given myself time, and by now I think that it has been long enough. So now I am going to officially ask you or anyone who bothers, to give me a wake-up slap and tell me to grow up.

Distraction needed!

fight or flight

I remember the day when I took this picture. It was past midnight and I wasn't online at that moment due to my midnight internet curfew. I had just disconnected my internet connection, set my laptop on the living room table and then did some writing offline.

Having just reformatted my laptop then, I discovered that I could finally take live pictures with my webcam! Prior to reformatting my lappie, there wasn't this function. Or maybe there was and I had not installed it properly. Anyway, the point was that I remember that day (or should I say night) very clearly.

Something happened that night. Something that would evoke an emotion completely contradictory to the expression you see on the image above. Something that shouldn't happen to anyone, except maybe to the meanest people in the world. But then the meanest, nicest, most beautiful, most wonderful etc is relative. So based on that, I can safely assume that what happened to me that night could maybe not evoke such a strong reaction and emotion-changing effect on someone else.

But if you know me really well, you'd know that I won't go into detail about this, no matter how much you try to force it out. And you'll also know that I'll be fine and rise up again. Never worry about Samantha Chow Jia Ern; I can take care of myself. At least emotionally and mentally, if not physically.

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I have a script to write, which is a new one for me because it's comedy and I'm such an epitome of a seriousness uncommon in people my age that it's difficult for me (to both write and act out). But there's always a first for everything. These past few weeks have been the start of many firsts for me. Happy firsts, unhappy firsts. So now the whole world can see how I will react to this, what I'll do and say. Unfortunately though, I feel that I haven't been acting as mature as I would like. I know what I should do, but the actual doing it is different.

If you're having difficulty following me, don't worry. I find that it's very hard to relate to something someone else is going through if you have not experienced it. I do not expect special treatment just because I am going through a different and slightly difficult phase in my life. I do not want or need it. Please do not even let the smallest conjecture of the word pity go through your mind when you see me. More likely than not I am more satisfied with my life now than you are with yours. And all I have to thank is my mind's wonderful 'fight or flight'-like ability to cut out everything unpleasant.

The long weekend ahead will be used wisely to finish up on my assignments and writings. I promise.

good morning!

Shitty shitty what the hell?

Narrowly avoided 4 major accidents in the past two days, my watch strap broke, my sim card went bonkers and I had to get a new one, my face is irritatingly itchy and the skin is disgustingly peeling yes I know gross but I can't think of another way to describe it. Yesterday I couldn't sleep at all, and did not, and only remembered around 5.30am, when I had to get up anyway, that I drank Xi Mut Milk Tea at around 11pm the previous night. So stupid of me, because I wanted to order Steven's iced coffee but told myself that I can't because coffee and tea makes me stay awake, then I turned around and ordered that Milk Tea. And didn't realise until many hours later what I did. So stupid of me because I remembered the last time I ordered that was when Shawn, Stanley and I met up at the same place and I ordered that and I couldn't sleep for shit.

What about uni stuff? The same things that everyone is going through, nearing the mid sem break which is the week after next. And next week there's only one day of class because the lecturers have to go for some sort of training or whatnot, so basically we're just stuck doing the assignments essays as well as preparing for presentations, which I'm fine with.

I want to cry!

Some things you just know. Like the fact that I knew that this week would be a shitty week, and that I knew last week would be amazing. It was, and it is. I need to go out, but I look like argh and I feel like argh and I know this week I have been a little weird and not myself but urgh aren't we all? I just want to knock my head on the wall, and throw and break stuff. More of the latter than the former though.

LESSON LEARNT - Next time, put lots and lots and lots of sun block!!!!!

The reason why I'm here blogging at 1.30am is because I woke up from my evening nap at 11.30pm. I'm losing control over my life again, and this reminds me of something unpleasant and quite recent. But I seriously do not think I have gotten over it, though sometimes I think I have.

It's 1.34am and I'm officially pissed off again. For the 1, 349, 238th time this week thank you very much.

A Short Nightmare Story

Cupcakes bought from the International Students Society at uni last week

I had a nightmare yesterday night! But firstly before I tell you the story, just let me say that I have been sleeping like a log the past two days, after the Mass Colympics thing! Like seriously deep sleep, one which I wake up groggy and my whole body especially my arms feeling very heavy. And my whole body feels sore and aching, like I've been through some heavy-duty physical exercise. I had to drive to the petrol station yesterday, and I really couldn't turn the wheel! I think it is due to the rock climbing, not the paintball. Also, I am a few shades darker and there are two obvious different tones on my arms.

I like it! Don't have to go all the way to the beach to get tanned! Perhentian in July, buddies!

Okay back to the nightmare story. Other than sleeping like a log these two nights, I also had very vivid and long dreams! I don't remember the one two nights ago, but just let me tell you about last nights'!

Btw I woke up at 2pm today; I was so tired.

I actually had some funny stories in my dream yesterday night but the only thing I bother remembering was the nightmare part.

It was Saturday night and I was getting ready for bed. I then took my phone to switch it off for the night. Then, I saw a reminder.

"Grey's Anatomy 10pm"

Oh shit it's past midnight already! I've missed it! And I had to go somewhere next Thursday night and will not be able to catch the repeat! Oh crap damn disappointed angry upset.

The End.

When I woke up, I was SOOOO relieved to find that it was all a dream. I had to remind myself that no, I did not miss THIS week's episode.

BTW, NTV7 did not reply my email yet. Neither did Malaysian's Meteorology Department. (BTW the Tsunami in July email is FAKE). And I have yet to receive my movie tickets.

What's the use of a complain department when the customers don't actually get entertained? Bah.

Taylor's Mass Colympics '09

Saturday - The day I've been looking forward to for weeks!

It was a great day all in all. I spent the whole of the previous day celebrating Vivien's birthday at TGIF, then went shopping til 8pm+ where I bought a gorgeous black and white dress for this unbelievable price that you won't be able to believe it. I still can't believe it myself. Imagine - RM15! My mom and sister were like I also want! after I told them. Luckily I could fit in it, because I wasn't allowed to try it on. You ask, why did you buy even though you weren't allowed to try?

One word - RM15!!

Anyway back to Mass Colympics, Sarah and Siew Ling came to my house for sleepover and we met up with my high school mates/the gang at the mamak in front of my house for breakfast around 8am.

I like this picture because I look nice in it! And you can't see my face

We ber-convoyed to Xtion Paintball Park at Bukit Jalil, which was initially fun but then some of them got lost behind and Jasmine got pulled over by the police for doing an illegal stop? Money gone lah.

Anyway we made it to that place just before 10am (we were supposed to reach before 9am) all in one piece. The guys came a bit later coz they made a wrong turning and ended up on the road to Putrajaya/KLIA because they act smart and didn't want to follow my car. Pandai.

Yes, she's from HELP

Out of the 12 of us who went, only two of us were from Taylor's. The rest - HELP, UCSI, Stamford, form 6, INTI... haha semangat Taylor's of them to come support Taylor's event! No, not because of the cheap paintball tickets!

We got our goodie bags, changed and quickly booked a spot under the trees. Actually we kinda 'took over' from my uni friends' spot, but then they had left early so it was okay. *Hahaha Li May & Nicholas haha*

Something must've caught my eye over there

A really good picture of us girls. (Phoebe, me, Joey, Alexis and Jasmine)
Joey in green coz she wants to be the special one.
(Imagine Sathish's face cropped out.)

And now let me present to you the teams. First round -

Team Alpha

Steven > Casey > Sathish > Stanley > Daryl

VERSUS

Team QueenB

Sam > Jasmine > Joey > Phoebe > Alexis

Winner: QueenB!

We thought that it would be a random mix but coincidentally the first round itself we found ourselves against each other. Mei Hsuan's team was also put against Li May's team in the first round. I feel so sorry for you guys Nicholas & Li May Never mind, more chances in the future!

Objective - shoot down your team's glass bottle THEN grab two flags. First team to make it through wins, after taking into account your 'faults' such as taking off masks before you are allowed to, and getting shot. If you win, you go on to the next round, and so on until there is left two teams in the finals. I think there were around 50 teams? Can someone clarify thanks.

The masks stink & made me breathless. I couldn't see clearly and was blur throughout the games. I still don't know how we made it through 4 rounds and lost only in the quarter finals. But more on that later on.

Sathish and I in full gear

Rawr! OK the mask senget a bit but still.

Us girls in the first game.
The one pointing is the marshal for our group who makes sure we don't cheat

Round two, Stanley temporarily joined us in place of Alexis.

4 QueenBs + 1 KingB
Alarr Casey kacau

A video of the second game. Alexis is the source of the loud commentary.

Obviously we won that round again. Long waiting for the third round. Finally they called us, and we were up against Team Bulls Eye, who DIDN'T show up must've went back home, so we automatically went on to the next round. Woo hoo girl power!

Mei Hsuan's team, Blue Black made it to that round but they lost. Siew Ling and Sarah had gone back home after the first round, so Casey and Daryl replaced them in the next 2 rounds. As for us, we were tired and was actually on the way to the parking lot when we heard them calling our team. We quickly ran back to finish off hopefully the last game (it was the quarter finals) because the guys all hungry konon lah.

We lost that round unfortunately because Joey bersemangat went to collect the flag before Phoebe, Jasmine and Alexis shot down the glass bottle. Ah well.

I actually think we had a shot in going to the semi finals, or the finals itself because we were quite good. And I actually shot someone in the last round, and he had to put the flag back in the original place because he didn't drop it when I shot him. All thanks to CS training HAHA

I also tried rock climbing along with Stanley, Alexis and Phoebe. And I always the optimistic, thought I could (easily) reach the top! Mana tau...

Yes that was the furthest I got. You can see that I barely even reach the top of the guys' heads ughh. Eh my hands hurt okay! And my legs were literally shaking! I wanted to cry from the embarrassment but instead gave a short laugh at myself and shouted at the guy to let me down. Well at least I tried! I remember ages ago when I went to Club Med I didn't make it to the top as well. Hmm one day soon.

More random pictures:

Sathish and his Gucci bag

LOL it's actually the most expensive bag on the field. It's Jasmine's bag with all our phones, purses, cameras and Jasmine's four (latest, mind you) phones in it.

Credits to Raffi - Ever ready for a picture

We went to Nirvana mamak at Bangsar after that. Sathish says my driving is pro. The petrol empty tank light flashed just as I was sending them home.

And I'm sunburnt!

*thousand apologies image removed just pretend you can see it*

Anyway the point of that horrible last picture was to show my poor face. I have a worse picture but I decided not to put it up because it's really horrible. Trust me. Though by now the red has faded and instead I'm tanned. See me in campus on Tuesday then you'll know.

I woke up Sunday morning feeling my whole body especially my arms and legs aching and sore. I can't even drive, stretch or undress properly! From PMs on Messenger, I deduce that some people are like me as well. It's even worse than when I come back from the gruelling 3D 2N prefect camps during high school.

And this concludes my post on the weekend's event. More to come - Vivien's 18th birthday and a philosophical article, which I might or might not post.