the end and the beginning

Comparisons are easily done,

Once you've had a taste of perfection.

Lyrics: Thinking of You by Katy Perry
Image : Gabriela Camerotti

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Finally my home internet is back! It's been a hectic and surreal few days for me, that's for sure. What with work, piano classes, layaning the antics of that absolutely sweet but perasan person, I barely have time to just sit and relax, what more facebook?

Oh wait I know you are just going what-what-what?

Ha ha okay I'll start from the beginning. Or maybe I shall just summarise because it's almost reaching midnight and don't we all know what it means? (Midnight Internet curfew, that's what!)

It was a long and busy weekend - Eve's BBQ picnic and new piano classes on Friday, more piano classes and Urbanscapes on Saturday (where I got lost for 4 hours and cried out of frustration in the middle of KL), and was out the whole Sunday.

Then I started my part time work yesterday at this media company (yes I know, it was a sudden thing for me too) and now you can catch me at Mid Valley Boulevard from 9am-6pm but it might be for this week only. Thanks Kel Li for recommending the job, and Daryl Ong for the crucial Internet help on Sunday night!

Right, be prepared for some updates on Urbanscapes, fete de la musique and other events, hopefully by this weekend.

Love Story Piano Cover

After many trials and errors, I recorded the almost-perfect video.



I don't know why they say that the pitch is out because I could sing along with it perfectly fine.

Perhaps I'll do the voice cover one of these days, if I feel like in the mood.

it was a warm happy wednesday

I wonder hmm.

It's been 3 days since my holidays started and I already feel 10 pounds heavier for sitting down most of the time.

However strangely despite my being a glutton and lazy ass these few days, the weighing machine tells me otherwise. Heh.

But that was this morning. Now that I had a heavy lunch I feel much bloated.

Sad.

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Yesterday was basically another lazy day. I was supposed to go buy a colour dye then go dye my hair kan, but unfortunately the colour I wanted was out of stock. Bummed around til evening then met up with my form 5 mates for a small yc session. (Pics here) After that it was to Sunway for Transformers!

It was raining the whole night. So weird that it has to happen on a night when I had to drive all the way to Sunway Pyramid alone for a midnight movie. BTW thanks SL for the free ticket!

How was the movie? Well I basically read up on American reviews in the afternoon and unfortunately I had yet to come across a good review, so I actually went in the cinema with low expectations.

Low expectations = not much disappointment.

Lame jokes and unbelievable scenes (like, a guy got tased and immediately recovered in like 5 secs wth) aside, I wish that there was more focus on the good robots like in the first movie than on the bad robots speaking English and arguing senselessly with each other.

Also, the focus on making Megan Fox a sex symbol (just because they know she is, and she can!) is so obvious that I can't help but roll my eyes the minute she first appeared. Watch the movie and you'll know what I mean.

And can you please give Josh Duhamel more screen time?

Let me tell you what annoys me about the movie. The two mini short and stumpy twin Autobots aka Smart Cars, the fakeness in which this (originally) (minor) Decepticon character transferred his allegiance to Mikaela, the good people, Mikaela just because it thinks she is hot, and Mikaela looking oh-so-good in the end of the movie even after all the rolling-on-the-ground-being-thrown-here-and-there...

OK I'm not saying that I'm jealous or what, it's just that how come she still has time to put on lip gloss even when she's on the run from the evil robots?

And on a non-movie related complaint - how come she has such gorgeous grey eyes when I have ordinary ones?

*note to self* Need to find out what brand of fake lashes she uses.

Ok ok back to the movie. I also wonder about the anorexic human-Decepticon machine - if they're so advanced why can't the Decepticons use more of these machines to infiltrate into the human government and find out more about the Autobots and stuff?

But of course there are good things about the movie which I liked. There is the excellent CGI (as compared to Blood, every other movie's CGI is definately better) and the whoa soundtracks which I'm definately downloading getting.

And of course, Josh Duhamel.

a smile is just a few muscles away from a frown, but oh! the effort

It's 11.25pm and I'm supposed to be treating my dad supper as a belated Father's Day thing but then everyone got cranky waiting for everyone to be ready, and I thought that since I wasn't gonna eat anyway I might as well give my sis the money and tell her to pay for whatever they're eating. Yes and I was quite pissed off already for being nagged the whole day and also about another issue.

Then as they were leaving I found out that my dad had closed the Youtube page of which I had been loading a video for the past 5 hours that was almost done!

I got so upset that I screamed, shouted, cried.



And now that I've somewhat calmed down I'm taking deep breaths. No telling what I'm feeling now though I don't want to think about it.

On the other hand I don't want to stay upset for so long so here's a good joke circulating through emails for you. It's a combination of an old joke with Malaysian flavour tossed in.

"A lawyer and an Chinese are sitting next to each other on a long flight. The lawyer is thinking that all Chinese are so dumb that he could get over on them, easy.

So the lawyer asks if the Chinese would like to play a fun game. The Chinese is tired and just wants to take a nap, so he politely declines, and tries to catch a few winks.

The lawyer persists, and says that the game is a lot of fun.

I ask you a question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me only $5;
When you ask me one, and if I don't know the answer, I will pay you $500, he says.

This catches the Chinese's attention and to keep the lawyer quiet, he agrees to play the game.

The lawyer asks the first question. 'What's the distance from The Earth to the Moon?'

The Chinese doesn't say a word, reaches in his pocket, pulls out a five-dollar bill, and hands it to the lawyer.

Now, it's the Chinese's turn. He asks the lawyer, 'What goes up a hill with three legs, and comes down with four?' The lawyer uses his laptop and searches all references he could find on the Net. He sends e-mails to all the smart friends he knows, all to no avail.

After one hour of searching he finally gives up. He wakes up the Chinese and hands him $500.

The Chinese pockets the $500 and goes right back to sleep.

The lawyer is going nuts not knowing the answer. He wakes the Chinese up and asks, 'Well, so what goes up a hill with three legs and comes down with four?'

The Chinese reaches in his pocket, hands the lawyer $5 and goes back to sleep.

The Chinese after handing over the $5 bill was about to fall asleep suddenly woke up and asked the lawyer another question.

'Who is the MB of Perak?'

The lawyer nearly choked on his drink, and hands over another $500."

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I resolve to go fix my hair tomorrow, then go for the late Transformers movie (which ticket I'm getting for free) at Pyramid after the yumcha with my form 5 mates.

Sigh I wish fullstop.

just a little hasty

omgomgomg so many things going on, so many things to do, so many things to blog about - I don't know where to start! Just seeing the number of pictures to edit and watermark and all already gives me a headache.

My video editing program is open, my fingers are itching to practice the piano after a week hiatus, I want to sort out the Perhentian thing ASAP, I want to go swimming, play all games on facebook, sort out my blog links and template, call a billion people to arrange this week's timetable...



Ah forget it all. Here's a little preview of the cupcakes post!

I don't know why but my heart is beating like really really fast just thinking about what to do first. Shit am I getting a stroke? (yes typical drama queen me!)

Time please stand still!

end of June 09

Sooo...what's coming up for this weekend and next week?

Tomorrow Eve's band An Honest Mistake is performing at Fête de la Musique and I'm going!

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Monday's the last day of sem and we're gonna celeb Pik Kei, Brandon and Li May's bday, plus the end of sem 1! Where and what time not confirmed yet.

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The 2nd No Man's Land event next Thursday - who else is interested lemme know ASAP!

Here's the link of my post for the first No Man's Land event in May.

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Eve's birthday plan at Sepang Goldcoast for BBQ on Friday! I'm cancelling my piano classes for you tau Eve so you better appreciate me more!

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Urbanscapes 2009 next Saturday - see you there! I'll go around 1-2pm and staying til as late as possible.

*Now all I gotta do is try to persuade dad to fill up my car's petrol tank. (whistles innocently)*

PS - At today's Absolute Bazaar, I bought a pair of gorgeous wedges and two tops!

PPS - I do hope the Perhentian thing with my uni mates will work out fine. Ahem Nicholas don't ffk!

Okay now back to my limited time PR assignment, which I must finish by tonight or else cannot go out tomorrow boo.

troubled slumber

Pictures to calm the fluttering heart.


handy artist tools

turning older

messed up

I found out that depending on yourself is the only way.

Monday monday monday!

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Upcoming (and longer!) posts to look forward to:

Homemade cupcakes!
Noelle's 19th birthday...thing.

it's all breaking out of me

I know that I am truly stressed out not when my eyes get swollen or what, but when I start getting unexplained itchiness all over my body for days, like what happened during my PMR.

I scratch and I scratch and I scratch like crazy.

And it's happening!

Like seriously Sam, this is so NOT a good time for a breakdown! You can do all the breakdowns you want after Monday!

*jumps around hyper-ly to make self awake*

i want to curl up under the covers

Today's a beautiful day.

But why do I not feel beautiful?

Image taken from http://www.flickr.com/photos/13739960@N02/3627744873/in/pool-florus

life #2

Now I know the true meaning of the word confusion.

Anyway, today's pictures are about my life, taken during little moments that I feel define who I am. Do you do the same things as me too?


vanity

do re mi

attention seeking

I'm doing some piano covers on some of Taylor Swift's songs. Might or might not add voice in, depending on my mood.

Do I have so many plans for the month plus long holiday coming the week after next!

I apologize for the really short posts, but I feel very guilty when I spend too much time blogging, instead of doing my assignments. June 22nd how much I am looking forward to you!

life #1

Today's themes are life, fashion and colours.



Lookbook.nu gives me inspiration to be something more.

Running through fields of pretty flowers...

...is where I thought I was.

Taken from:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/strawberrykoi/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/bellakotak/

Fate, It Is

I tried to upload our EC group act video on Youtube so many times, but everytime...!

First time after waiting 2 hours my Internet suddenly got disconnected so I tried again.

Stayed up for over 5 hours til 2pm+ then it got uploaded but couldn't view yet. Next day went to youtube again to check if it's finally uploaded. They said that it's too long, over the limit of 10 minutes, so it's rejected.

Today I cut the video into 2 parts.

I uploaded the first part, then after an hour the Internet got disconnected AGAIN. It has been happening quite frequently these few days and it's so annoying.

I uploaded it again, then left it loading while I went out.

I came back around 10pm to find that my mom had closed my laptop lid, so everything is gone!

What to do but to upload again? I was so afraid that the Internet will get disconnected again or something in the like. Was about 90% completed when suddenly FIREFOX CRASHED!

OH MY GOSH *&!@%(#)#!*

foodies #1

Today's theme is food! Homemade bread, a healthy dinner and cold dessert, good for a hot day like this.


homemade hot dog bread!

dinner

durian + honeydew + sago mixed with a generous amount of real durian paste yums!

Thank God for the weekend and proper rest finally! Off for a YC session!

pretty #1

'Somebody' accidentally squashed the purple swan

Shell-like patterned lamps

Want, Not Need (part six)

Part One *click here*
Part Two *click here*
Part Three *click here*
Part Four *click here*
Part Five *click here*

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I am still I

I believe that I have changed greatly. More so this year, when I have been encouraged to think and make decisions for myself. No more the shallow & simple-minded childish teenager who had very elaborate and idealistic dreams and unreal perceptions on people and how they actually perceived me. I have gone through and now know of the real side of human beings. They want something better and will not give a care about something previously important to them, once they have in their sights something that they feel they will like more.

It is heartless and cruel, but there it is.

I admit – I felt really upset, disappointed and lost. I was wondering why did I not see that coming? My unreal heavy expectations had blurred my vision and I was lost in the childish hopes that kept me going.

However in one swift scoop everything was taken away and I was left naked and embarrassed.

Have you ever felt like that? Like everything was changed in just a second. Your life turned upside down, inside out. Everything before that had led up to the moment was insignificant. Now all you have left is maintaining your dignity and keep moving on, however scarred you are.

The five stages of grief – denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance.

Denial – giving yourself hope with every small sign that does not mean anything but to you it makes the world of difference.

Anger – at the other party for doing this to you. And at yourself for letting yourself being acting the way you do.

Bargaining - wondering what is it that you could have done to change it.

Depression - countless buckets of tears fueled by emo songs shed every night and lingered on your thoughts every waking second.

Acceptance – being able to live your life again, albeit being changed inside. You swear never to be treated this way again.

I wonder if you ever understood the implications of doing what you did – and we both know it wasn’t a one-day thing but instead over a period of time. If you never meant to do it, then why did you still, after having so many months to consider your actions. You are not stupid – you knew that doing something would mean something. And I’m sure that you know that I’m not stupid and won’t be blind to your actions. But still you did what you did. Do you regret it now? Or are you living your life so full of yourself that you still do not see it, and it has never crossed your mind?

I have accepted the fact. But I still have questions. I wonder what it’s like to be you. What goes through your mind? To be able to do what you did and yet pretend that nothing ever happened. Like you never did anything.

Like it all happened in my head.

I may be a bit blur, but I’m certainly not dumb. In fact you can say that I’m more than receptive and intuitive to things that happen. Many things that I suspect is the case, IS the case. So don’t tell me that I was wrong. I’m not. That’s undeniable. But what I want to know is, how do you feel now? Because I am so curious to know, whether that’s a good or negative feeling going through you now as you read this. And you are not wrong –I am talking about you. Believe your intuition. So do tell me. Tell me why you did what you did. Justify yourself. Give excuses. Make me believe you and drop the subject, never to be picked up again.

Because or else this would stay on my mind forever.

Emotions – you cannot live with or without it.

This is the last of the series.

...always do.

Finally.

I dedicate this to you. This would be the last time I'm ever going to write about you. You do not inspire me anymore.

You should know that I wouldn't even think about doing this if I haven't gotten over it completely.

Goodbye.

Your fingertips across my skin,
The palm trees swaying in the wind,
Images...

You sang me Spanish lullabies,
The sweetest sadness in your eyes,
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy,
I thought you'd want the same for me...

Goodbye, my almost lover,
Goodbye, my hopeless dream,
I'm trying not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you,
I should've known you'd bring me heartache,
Almost lovers always do.

We walked along a crowded street,
You took my hand and danced with me,
Images...

And when you left you kissed my lips,
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no...

I never want to see you unhappy,
I thought you'd want the same for me...

I cannot go to the ocean,
I cannot drive the streets at night,
I cannot wake up in the morning,
Without you on my mind.

So you're gone and I'm haunted,
And I bet you are just fine,

Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Lyrics to Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

Images taken from
http://www.flickr.com/photos/pirex/2899914933/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/e_monk/2848293221/
http://hiritai.deviantart.com/art/Park-Bench-94383340
http://cinemasalon.ning.com/profiles/blogs/italian-double-il-divo-and
http://mycharliegirl.blogspot.com/2009_03_01_archive.html
http://talkingabouttheweather.blogspot.com/2007/08/fine-frenzy-lyrics-for-lovelorn.html
http://media.photobucket.com/image/a%20fine%20frenzy/AnnieBug267/afinefrenzy.jpg

Inspired by
Daydream Lily
That Unreliable Girl

Standing Out Is What We Do Best

Nuffnang's Standout event yesterday was a blast! After anticipating it for weeks, we finally made it!

[Facebook album *click here*]
[edited] Read my qualifying Standout post here

Let's start with a fun pic, taken at the end of the day shall we?

Haha now that we've got that over, I shall start from the very beginning.

I invited Noelle as my buddy for the event, and I'm glad to say I did not regret the choice. You were good company, as well as Kristine & Flora!

My dad ferried us there as he had an event nearby too, and I didn't want to drive as I didn't have time to find out how to go and I was planning to drink as well. Don't drink and drive you guys!

We were dress so sparkly that inside the car it was like a mini-disco!

We made it an hour earlier so we went for 'coffee' and some snacks at Frames. Really gorgeous place.

Don't you love this shot too?

You'll love the place too trust me.

I want to get those frames for my future home!

Yummy hot wedges!

I also love this shot of Noelle - a right amount of naughty and cheeky!

Silver's my theme that night

Seven plus we made our way to the club. Or pub. Club-pub? Pub-club?

I'm an early bird only lah not like Bryan Privileged Standouts worrr...

Saw some outrageous costumes so of course we got some pics with them first. Got talking to them then found out that the one in red is actually Angela, Victor's girlfriend whoa small world. I couldn't recognise her in all that makeup and costume! Then while we were omg-ing in the improbability of it Victor suddenly came trudging along.

Howard and I! Good to finally put a person behind the faces on the Internet.

Went in the club-pub and they had some games and stuff but I'm too lazy to explain. Ah well the main event was they chose some people who were really standing out in terms of outfit and well seeing their costumes, I didn't mind not being chosen.

Jojo Struys and Liang were the hosts. The Standout finalists consisted of a cow, belly dancer, 16th century court woman, Susan Boyle, Edward Scissorshand and a Egyptian princess.

Mostly everyone was meeting new friends, and not missing the photo ops with all the famous faces, of course!

Nuffnang's boss Timothy Tiah and adorable Audrey Ooi. They're one of the sweetest couple I know and the thing is, they were really nice and made an effort to talk and ask questions.

Was surprised to meet JQ and her bro there!

Another uni friend - Michelle! I actually already knew she was going (from facebook) but it was good to actually see her in person. Never really talked to her in uni before but now I have and she's really nice!

Ooh ooh and Suann aka pinkpau my idol! You should go to her blog to see her wonderful writing wei! And of course random lovely pics as well

She was really cute and said that I must first guess who is she dressed up as before we could snap a pic. And no, she's not a policewoman.

She's dressed up as Cecilia Cheung.

Erm, okay?

And of course Kenny Sia! He came in normal clothes but then I spotted him going into the washroom. (No I wasn't stalking him, I just so happened to see okay!) I guessed (correctly) that he was going to change into something outrageous, and true to my words...

He came as Susan Boyle! Haha he was literally the life of the party weih.

Suet Li aka Sweatlee she's really pretty in real life too!

And I met some other Nuffnangers too finally face to face.

Samantha, Samantha and Suresh! :D

I felt that Samantha (Kong) and I were fast friends from the moment we met. Really, she's one of the few people whom I could easily click with at first sight.

One of the outrageous games planned. Two people put their heads into a hot pink pantyhose then a tug of war. Kenny Sia won this game. I got some videos which I shall upload on facebook then I'll put the link here.

Oh yes and it was big boss Timothy's birthday. Naturally they had a surprise planned - cake and messages from all of us which we would stick on him.

He's only 25 and already so successful. I also want!

[edited]: Managed to grab a last minute pic with Bryan before we left.

Photo credits to Bryanlyt

Sorry for the abrupt ending. I really have a lot to do other than blogging and tagging pics on facebook. Will post up the part 6 of the series of Want, Not Need on Tuesday. Nuffnangers, do leave me a message if you want the original picture without the watermark.