Thursday, April 21, 2011

do you think you know or do you know that you do not?

It’s funny how that at any age, we think that we know what’s best for us. We think that we know everything there is to know, that we are at the most mature point of our lives. Then we grow a little older, and think that now we are more mature. A little older, a little more mature. And so it goes on.

But until when? When would you be at the peak of your maturity, of knowledge, of experience? Perhaps it’s wrong to include experience in as it is definitely achieved at your oldest point in life (which is just before your death, I think). Okay then, when would you be most mature, most sane, most logical? Is it at the prime of your life – 40? Or at 55, the age of retirement? Or is it fresh out of graduation? (Very doubtful) Would it be after the first day of work, when you come back home exhausted and realizing how hard life will be for the next 40 years? That moment of unhappy revelation is coming sooner than later for me and I am NOT looking forward to it.

I am 20 going on 21 and am in my final year. After graduation next February, I am most likely not going to further my studies but have to step on the bandwagon of eternal slavery to the work industry (yes yes poor me). I spend many days worrying about what is going to happen, whether I would find the perfect job, whether the perfect job pays me nuts or oranges, and whether I would get fired on my first week. (Why so pessimistic Sam?) Okay I also wonder whether I’ll be stuck on a job just because I’m afraid of change, or whether it’ll take me to places I cannot imagine? The future, as I’ve discussed just yesterday, is as clear as the Klang River. And boys and girls, there is nothing that we can do about it, short of stealing a crystal ball from a gypsy and risk getting cursed for the next 10 generations.

But I digress. The topic of adults and maturity is one that I have debated and discussed many times (with myself) and have told myself many times that the conclusion is and will stay the same: that nobody ever achieves full perfection in terms of maturity and decision making, no matter how old or how experienced you may be.

How disappointing, you say, but I have learnt to come to terms with that fact. I have spent hours lamenting and praying that I am wrong, that somehow humans once reaching the age of, let’s say, 35, will have achieved the full enlightenment.

Unfortunately my prayers were not answered. I opened my eyes and saw that the world was still the same, the adults that I know are still behaving (sometimes) rather childishly and (many times) annoyingly to deserve a spank (now now no naughty jokes) like a 5-year old who has smeared chocolate all over my clean books.

No point asking me to give examples of the said childish acts as I believe that most if not all of us have come across someone who has acted that way, when you thought that they should not be doing it.

Okay okay I’ll give you an example since you’re really desperate to know. If you read through my old posts I once mentioned a politician lady who apparently attacked her daughter’s friend with a scissors because of some stupid argument. I will also mention another case (which I saw with my own eyes, and have blogged about it before) where the parents of a student in my school ‘kidnapped’ and violently hit a friend of mine because they had been arguing in school and blabla long story short: THESE ADULTS ARE STUPID!

The older I get, the more I see of older people doing things that even I know is wrong. It’s such a shameful disgrace to the human community in general. You ask, why do these people even exist? Don’t they have common sense? Don’t they know what’s the basic of right and wrong? Don’t they know that what children see, children do? Even if you are uneducated and have worked as a woodcutter or coal miner (been reading too much Aesop fables these days) all your life, you would definitely have been given natural common sense. RIGHT?

There are other examples that differ from the ones I said above, such as the ones that the answers might not be as clear or obvious. Such as knowing when to stop an argument in a relationship, whether to give it up or hold on tight to it. You’d think that we would naturally know what to do when the situation comes, but trust me, it is harder than it seems.

Nothing I wish for more than the full knowledge of what to do now.

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