Tuesday, May 31, 2011

fthat me!

Do you own an Android phone and wish for a social application to locate your friends, keep up with events, send and receive messages for free and get directions to far off places?

Well the solution is here with the Fthat app!

A little background on the project: Five Taylor’s Bachelor of Computer Science students namely Tey Pok Lin, Sarmad Sangi, Yoon Jin Park (Dennis), Goh Pui Leng (Derrial) and Lee Khuan Yew worked with their mentor, Ms. Aidora Abdullah to collaborate with Celcom AxiataBerhad for the Mobile Application Development Project. Therefore the Fthat application was developed!

Fthat is an Android-based mobile application that allows users to locate their Facebook friends and keep up with Facebook events around them, send and receive messages for free, and get directions via Waypoint.

On the 12th of May 2011, Fthat presented their business model and mobile application to a panel of judges from Celcom and they were all amazed at the quality of the application and the students’ presentation skills. Some of the comments include “All apps do not look like students’ projects; it looks like real developers’ projects”, “Fantastic applications and presentations”, “The apps developed are better than some real developer’s work” and “The apps have very high potential for commercialization”. Woah, if only I have an Android :(

However if YOU have an Android, you can already download the beta version of the mobile application at http://fthat.tk

Here are the five Taylor’s students together with their mentor. Like their Facebook page at http://facebook.com/fthatmobileapp to give them support!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

tortilla tuesdays

Have you ever written a long essay, or even maybe just a paragraph or two of something that you really want to say, then deleted it without sending?

Some things are better off kept inside, you know.

stereotypes on campus

When you look at someone, what is the first thing that comes to your mind?

Is it the colour of their skin, their facial and physical features, the type of clothes they wear or the manner in which they speak?

Stereotyping is one of the most common misconceptions of the people around us, as they are simply based on first impressions and prior assumptions.

Come join us in our exploration of the many stereotypes on your very own campus with Dr Adnan Omar from the Taylor's Counseling and Psychological Services Centre.

Date: 26th May 2011
Time: 10.30am - 12.00pm
Venue: Block E, Level 4, Classroom E4-10, Taylor’s Lakeside Campus

Organized by The Pips, we are Semester 5 Public Relations (2) students and this event is part of our coursework, so I do hope you’ll come and give us your support!

The classroom will only fit about 30, so please come early to book a seat. There will also be an interesting activity during the talk which I promise will be an eye-opener.

Monday, May 23, 2011

classic lime margarita

Today I want to rave about the bestest version of my favourite classic lime margarita which i discovered just yesterday night: it is the smooth ice blended margarita!

Not sure whether it’s exactly the same in other places but this was in La Bodega (I vow to try their breakfast set one of these days.)

I promise it is much much more enjoyable than the usual shaken version!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

what a girl does best

OK the plan is simple. You’ll let me know when he is planning to come down to Malaysia, and I will arrange for an ‘accidental orange juice bump’ with him at the airport. He’ll straightaway fall in love with me then bring me back to the US and we’ll make lots and lots of uh videos.

The best part is that he sounds like a reaaaaaaally nice guy. Really my kind lor.


Thursday, May 19, 2011

cantaloupe sky

I was reading on the couch when the sound of pattering rain made me turn to look at the balcony…and saw the whole world basking in orange.

Little miracles do happen, even if just for a heartbeat.


When you take a not too careful sip of hot Milo, chances are you will scald your tongue. The aftermath is more annoying than really painful, but it’s long-lasting; eight hours later you can still feel the numbing uncomfortable scalding ache. Like nursing a broken relationship that  you know will never mend, or in a fit of anger blurting the wrong thing to your best friend, some things you will discover with an painful ache in the depths of your heart, you can never ever truly recover from. The things in question may not be on purpose, like the accidental scalding of the hot drink on your tongue, but nonetheless has already happened. It may be the fates of Heaven or it may be pure incidental, but nevertheless has come to pass no matter how much you wish it never did. No matter how much you pray for time to go back to just days before, or for people to really take back their words, for relationships to mend perfectly and not leave a scar…it will never happen. One may wish with all their might, pray the entire day, vow to do good, just so that things will go back to the way it did before, but deep down inside one knows the sad truth.

Why do people do the things they do? Why do we make one another upset? Why do we say angry things when we sometimes don’t mean it? Why do we ironically want the ones who don’t love us and ignore the ones who do? Why do human beings even want? What is the point of giving love when it can be freely rejected?

What happens when you’re stuck and don’t know how to go on? What happens when, despite having a lousy time you actually don’t want to go on?

It is a sad day when one wakes up to find all their hopes and dreams missing.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

qotd #6

"It's ironic how we ignore those who want us, want those who ignore us, love those who hurt us, and hurt those who love us." - Source

I want to write more on this but maybe after I'm done with my more pressing assignments.

I love the end of semesters; everybody's so busy busy buhbusy.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

qotd #5

"I was licking my wounds, and I wanted to call my best friend. Except this time, she was the one who'd caused them." -Handle With Care by Jodi Picoult.

qotd #4

"When you taste this one, you can still sense the heaviness left behind. It's the shadow under the sweet, the question on the tip of your tongue."
- Handle With Care by Jodi Picoult.

Monday, May 16, 2011

qotd #3

"But only - only - if you want to go too."

"Me? I'll follow you to the end of the world." -Tariq & Laila in A Thousand Splendid Suns.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

to-do list

To-do list:

1. Finish up all my assignments for the semester.
2. Get a cat.
3. Clear out my wardrobe.
4. Write a will.
5. Take more photos.
6. Write more.
7. Swim every weekend.
8. Take on lesser responsibilities, more “me” time.
9. Go on more trips and breaks.
10. Never forget.

the night the underaged decided to party

Night out with the two of my BFFs! Don’t worry, no terrible post-drunk photos of anyone to laugh at.

I have the most gorgeous friends with the longest legs!

I love the smell of my silver glitter clutch. Just kidding, it’s really a liqour flask.

Why is the below picture relevant? Only to show the efforts girls take to dress from top to bottom, and from the tips of our hair til the last toenail. At the end of the night, two pairs of the three above have somehow attained broken straps. Plus mine almost made me sprain my ankle, right in the middle of the streets of KL.

In other news, the funghi pizza in modestos is “teh bombz”!

Today I decided to fight for my happiness. I’ve had a most stressful and busy year and realized that there’s plenty of time for work and responsibilities when I start working. No point making myself unhappy for the sake of ‘titles’, premature responsibilities and spending time doing things that I don’t like to.

I’m sorry if I let you down but I’ve finally realized that there is no meaning to life at all if I can’t be happy doing what I do. And I’ve been unhappy plenty enough.

Friday, May 13, 2011

pink polka

I know. I love my new blog layout too. Love shabbyblogs.com to death!


Guys, where are you going? Come back! Guys...?

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

and all because of a little pain on the shoulder

After spending a terrible sleepless night due to a mysterious dull pain on my right shoulder during which I had woken up every hour to apply my ever trusty Counterpain (which unfortunately did help for only ten minutes before wearing off) I woke up this morning feeling like shit. Had some plans for the day but was seriously considering just staying home. However I knew that it would be for the best if I did not stay home to mope the entire day, so I quite reluctantly left for uni.

It wasn’t the best of weather; the sun was blazing hot and there was a bad haze which made me feel worse than ever. I spent a torturous two hours in the lecture hall where I tried my best to not doze off despite me feeling so extremely tired. I was also sniffling as the flu had decided to visit. It didn’t help that the room was so cold, that I didn’t had anything to eat or drink before, and I was surprised I managed to come out of the hall at 2pm still alive. I hurried off to get some currypuffs to fill my tummy and a bottled water before rushing off to Subang to meet my Grandma who was bringing me to the hair saloon.

I was not in the best of moods, was already sporting a red nose and spending an impatient 5 hours smelling toxic hair products made me feel like death. It did not help that I wanted quiet but unfortunately I did not get quiet. Also the hair did not turn out as expected. But I was too tired to do anything about it.

Went home, screamed and made somebody mad, did something I wish I did not do and missed someone greatly. Certainly there were also other factors which made today a day I wouldn’t want to go through again, but I do really hope to get a hold on my impatient side and learn that even if one is really tired and not feeling well, it’s not an excuse to be rude.

It’s just so hard though. To practice patience when one is thoroughly irritated, feeling so sickish AND on an empty stomach, and having spent a really lousy day. Or month.

And the worst part is, I feel a throbbing on my right shoulder now again…

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

where I am today

Today I realized that in all regards, I have been very lucky. And blessed.

Hard work does play a part but definitely being blessed is the major reason of me being able to wake up every day. Of course I don’t get every single thing that I want, but what I do have is more than many.

Now if only I can start learning to be happy…

Sunday, May 8, 2011

the eternal question

I realized today that the book of Ecclesiastes is the most...relevant for my current situation. Lately I've been pondering (to put it simply) the meaning of life, and what is my purpose here on Earth. Why am I born to this particular family at this time of the century, why here in KL, Malaysia, why a girl instead of a boy, why did everything that has happened to me, happened? How old will I live up to, what will I become? What will happen in the next year after graduation? Will I be successful, or not? Will I be rich? (starting to sound very que sara-ish!)

And most of all, why even bother? When you know that the end will definitely come?

The worst part is that I actually look forward to (a normal painless accidental) death because then I won't have to bother with whatever 'trials and errors' that life throws to us, whatever success that I will see after 30 years of toil, children that I've spent a difficult 20 years to raise...

What is the point of everything when right now I don't feel that anything is worth living for?

I don't mean to sound so depressed & emotional; I've just reached the point in life where I want to question, well, life itself. And this is where the book of Ecclesiastes comes in.

I've not read the Bible in a long time. Yes, I'm aware of this particular chapter but I don't think I paid it any more attention than the ones with the 'interesting stories', just because it wasn't relevant to me. Not yet anyway. My NIV Thompson Student Bible says that the book of Ecclesiastes is writter for 'those who seek meaning and significance in life, especially young people.'

You cannot get any closer than that. This book was written around 3000 years ago for ME at THIS moment in my life.

The conclusion (allow me to fast forward a little) is that God ultimately is the reason for a fulfilling life. Which is what I came out with in my 'existentially alive' post on March 12! I just haven't had the faintest idea how to proceed from my conclusion. Things just started going crazy, my life as I'd known had started to unravel, I was busy trying to fit back the pieces and I got distracted.

The book of Ecclesiastes starts off dramatically with a quote:

"Meaningless! Meaningless!"
says the Teacher.
"Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless."

Much as I appreciate his dramatic understanding for my situation, I feel that fortunately, I'm still sane enough to know that my life, at least, is not 'that' bad.

The author (may have been Solomon) continues discussing the monotony of life (that's me), the search for happiness (this too!), the weariness of life (umm this is getting creepy) and more (all relatable to me), ending with the most important: author's conclusion. No point complaining about how useless everything is when we don't get a solution in the end.

"Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.
For God will bring every deed into judgement,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil."
Ecclesiastes 12:13-14

Today I registered for Kingdom Keys in my church. At least we're starting somewhere.

I started off reading this book today when my dad showed me a quote about preferring death to life. However when I actually started reading this book I couldn't find the particular quote which I felt at that time was so relevant to me. What I found was actually the solution for my situation:

"So I commend the enjoyment of life, because nothing is better for a man under the sun than to eat and drink and be glad. The joy will accompany him in his work all the days of the life God has given him under the sun." 8:14-15

"-then I saw all that God has done. No one can comprehend what goes on under the sun. Despite all his efforts to search it out, man cannot discover its meaning. Even if a wise man claims he knows, he cannot really comprehend it." 8:16-17

What I've learnt is simply 'to obey God while also being happy on Earth'. It may sound near impossible seeing that everyone has to reach a point in life where they feel that there's just no point anymore, but try hard we must to enjoy what has already been given to us: the gift of precious life itself.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

May 5

The other day I saw this quote, which made a lot of sense.

"Never regret anything because at some point you wanted it".

Personally, I never regret most of the things I do, even if the results are not what I want. It is because I know I have tried my best, and if I know I did not, it is because I never intended to.

And I never intended to live a regret-filled life.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

thank you!

Taylor’s Book Club and the Expert Forum from the School of Communication did a great job of organizing today’s talk by Marina Mahathir on Inspiring Young Writers in This Age of Democracy.

I would like to thank my helpful Book Club committee members: Siew Ling, Yoong Jian, Sarah, Raffi, Mei Hsuan and Daniel Thomas. Much appreciation to our lovely emcee Li May who did a great job even though preparation was last minute. Also gracious thanks to the wonderful Expert Forum committee led by Ms Usha, with Mr Winston, Mr Justin Victor, Mr Justin Lopez, Ms Ngim, Ms Catherine Lee Cheng Kiat and everyone else who helped even with the smallest things. Thank you to Student Development Hub Ms Faith and Mr Ronson for their kind advice. Special thanks to Ben who helped me with the fantabulous speech although yes I do think I would need coaching on public speaking. Thank you to all the media who attended our event (though I wasn’t aware that there would be some). But a definite infinite thanks to all of YOU who took the time off to attend our event.

And of course, for kindly attending our humble event and sharing with us practical real life experience and advice on journalism, a big Thank You to Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir.

More pictures to come!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Expert Forum: Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir

Taylor's Book Club with the collaboration of the Expert Forum is organizing a talk by Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir entitled 'Inspiring Young Writers In This Age of Democracy.'

What should young writers do in this time of political and social turbulence?

Learn to take charge by incorporating it in your actions and writing.

There is a Q&A session after the talk. This event is open to the public as well but priority given to Taylor's students.

Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir is a writer, women's rights and HIV/AIDS activist and TV producer. She served as the President of the Malaysian AIDS Council for 12 years from 1993-2005. In addition Marina has served on many regional and international HIV/AIDS bodies including the AIDS Society of Asia and the Pacific (ASAP), UNIAIDS and the Asia Pacific Leadership Forum on HIV and Development (APLF). Currently she is a member of the Board of Sisters in Islam.
Marina also writers a fortnightly column on social issues in a local English-language daily as well as online, produces a TV programme for young women and writers and speaks regularly on women's issues particularly where it relates to Islam, gender and HIV/AIDS. She is also an avid blogger with her on blog,www.rantingsbymm.blogspot.com, and a Twitterer (@netraKL) and Facebooker.

This event is organised by Taylor's Book Club and the Expert Forum of the School of Communication with the approval of the Student Development Hub.

Check out the facebook event page.


Song of the moment:

Tragedy: When the feeling's gone and you can't go on, It's tragedy.
When the morning cries and you don't know why,It's hard to bear.
With no one to love you, you're goin' nowhere

Bee Gees ftw!

Monday, May 2, 2011

meditations in may

Watched Big Fish again today as the rain poured outside, comforted with bowls of hot porridge. Always amazes me how people’s imagination can go so far, so colourful, so dreamlike.

It’s funny how I know many people, but there is only a handful that I like to talk to. I can laugh with and spend a nice five minute chat with most people but there are only a few that I would love to sit down and have a nice pillow talk with the whole night. I have found only a few who truly clicks with me, to whom I won’t mind baring all (my thoughts, that is), who shares the same worries as me, who loves the same things in life: a good book, hot chocolate, rainy weather, and solitude.

And maybe cats?

So far I have not found the one who writes for love, sings for sorrow and cries with me.